I am going to try this one last time for you my boy (in weekly wrap up form), because my memory is only getting worse!

Last weekend we had some great family time on our nature walk in Ashland city and at the Harpeth Narrows. There were snakes, lizards, salamanders, fish, turkeys and giant blue-green caterpillars. You have a fantastic time wading in the creek and can't wait to get back to it. There was a stop in Carl's Perfect Pig and a good but tiring time was had by all.

Your birthday is coming up and you are wanting it to happen NOW. There is much gnashing of teeth and wailing about a certain number of TMNT toys that you want. There is also a considerable amount of complaining about your new school, otherwise known as the "most boringest school ever". Well, sorry kid your out of luck cause it's only been a few weeks and your clearly have better handwriting. Education trumps mayhem I'm afraid.

We have been doing our usual things, watching Mythbusters, giggling excessively, playing baby ghost. We have been watching your amazing "ninja" moves. It's been a blast as always. Tomorrow you and I will hit the farmer's market and see what the day holds. Thanks for the adventure.

ARGH!

Oh Kid how you are pushing our buttons. We sailed through year two and crashed into year three. Now there is so much more resistance from you, so much more arguing and stubbornness. I know it is part of the process but I must say there are days I wish the compliance would return. You are pretty sharp, I think you will soon figure out there is an easy way and a hard way and choose the former. You hate time out and no doubt respond better to positive reinforcement but sometimes leave us no choice but to punish you. Yesterday you sat for a half an hour at the table refusing to take two bites of Cauliflower. We had to go somewhere but when we came back I warmed them up and you ate those two bites. My will is stronger than yours my boy and that will make all the difference in the end. I love you until the end of days but you are going to listen to your Mom.

Mom's Life List Part 2

Buy a Timbuk 2 bag

Buy a pair knee high kitten heeled boots

Go to Japan

Go someplace in Alaska or BC you can only get to by airplane or helicopter

Eat baby squid at the Terried Sake House again

It's like this

Son,

I can't tell you what this last 6 months has been like for your father and I. It's the kind of financial anxiety I hope you will always be spared. But since your father started his new job last month it's like the sunshine breaking through the clouds. The heavy mood has lifted for us and though it never impacted the fun we all had together, it allows us greater joy.

You have grown, like someone stretched you on a rack. You are thinning and lengthening and turning into such a kid. All scraped elbows and bruised knees. You can get your bike going from a complete stop and have such an innate physical ability. It's remarkable to watch.

You are healthy and happy, unless you are tired. Then it's grumpy pants galore. You are addicted to chocolate and struggle to understand why we don't start our day with treats. You would rather make music than listen to it. You are imaginative and goofy. In other words, a total delight. This weekend your cousin was visiting and you were so happy and such a good little host. Sharing and trying to show him everything. We watch "chuggas" and Bob the Builder. You are STILL crazy about John Deere. You always want to go straight- which is through downtown on the way home. I have been walking over and taking you on the shuttle bus with me which is a treat for everyone. No one can help but smile at the joy you have in something we take for granted.

Nana has gone home for the time being and this has been a little difficult. You miss her and the adventures you had at "Nana School" during the week. Though soon your brother will be here for the summer and a whole new set of adventures will begin!

Dearest, we love you so much. Everything about you. They way you like to sleep with blankets on your head. How you flip thorough catalogs while sitting on the potty. How you help daddy mow the grass. The way you think everything is silly. Even in the midst of all our strife, we laughed with you and loved you even more.

Behind

I seem to have fallen significantly behind here and there isn't much I can say for myself. Your father and I are having one of the most stressful times of our lives right now and in that case we both withdraw a bit. You on the other hand are blossoming with knowledge, imagination, personality and cheer. It's joy to be around you.

There is so much to say, I am going to try to break it down month by month:

Aug: We said goodbye to your beloved brother after a trip to Kentucky to Tootsie's House. You and Brother and Grandma hit the fountains at the courthouse much to your delight.

Sept: The highlight was your birthday! We had a John Deere extravaganza. Party Hats, chocolate candy tractors on green frosted cupcakes, and a John Deere tractor cake put together by me and Nana. We had the party at Grandma's porch. Your cousins helped with opening presents and you all had a great time pushing around trucks and devouring cake. You loved your ukulele. Nana bought you a Thomas set, only fueling your addiction to what you call chug a choos.

Oct: Nana moved to Nashville and you have been having a fab time with her. She has been keeping you home a day or two a week. You are killing us with the why, who is that, where did that come from, what's that, what's in the store...etc. Non-stop questions! You jump, you pedal, you gallop. You wake up and sing to yourself peacefully for nearly a half and hour. I love listening to you. We had several family events at the barn with big bonfires and you played ring around the rosy in the dark with all the other kids. You climbed on hay bales and chatted up strangers. Nana and I took you to a pumpkin patch farm and it took you a bit but you finally fed a goat. It would have been cheaper though if we had just stayed home and let you climb on the riding lawn mower cause that was your favorite part. You also wanted to know where the lions where. Maybe time for another trip to the zoo!

Nov: You are starting to memorize books and rhymes and songs. You have picked up crazy phrases from day care such as My bad, and No Deal. You are starting to color more and your imaginative play has exploded. We have great conversations in the car in the morning and evenings. You have turned into a chocolate junkie and you are crazy about watermelon and raisins just at the moment. This weekend you have a birthday party and a trip to see the trains at the Science Center.

I know you won't remember any of this but it brings us so much happiness to experience the novelty of the beautiful world through you. You are happy healthy and wonderful. I am proud but mostly I just feel lucky for the blessing that is you.

I did it!

My Dear Boy,

You have been so much fun summer. You are now speaking in full sentences about 90% of the time. "I don't want to ride that city bus", you informed me last night. It's like someone put your speech development on warp speed.

You are proud of yourself when you do something, even something small, announcing, "I did it." I hope that stay with you for the rest of your days because there are few things more valuable than your confidence.

Big Brother is here for the summer and sadly is leaving next week. You stood at the door and cried for him when he went to camp in the morning. You love watching TV with him or anything with him. It's so sweet. You've picked up some phrases from him. Nu-unh, and No, I'm fine right now. In fact you have really been into the whole family lately. Spending time with Grandma and Grandpa, talking to Nana on the phone, and really not wanting me to leave you at school in the morning. We are having quite a good time playing together and you don't the fun to stop. Can't say I blame you, hard for me too kiddo.

As for your father and I, I think we will remember this year in particular. It's been a bit hard on us so far but still time for things to turn around. You and your brother have been a bright spot in our lives this summer. It's special when we are all together and there is nothing that makes you happier. We make not always know what is going on in that head of yours but in this case, we know just how you feel.

Ouch

Two trips to the ER in around two months, that's how it's been with you lately. First, you took a headlong plunge into the edge of a chair rail to the tune of three stitches in your eyebrow. Second you took a standard walk on the sidewalk and turned into a week of a cast and not two weeks of an immobilization brace. And it's my fault. Because my dear, Mommy is clumsy. I'm sorry. I have cursed you it seems with both my addiction to chocolate and my pitiful sense of balance. Now that you have proved yourself to be a defective Weeble, I have to keep a closer eye on you. Especially since you always want to try things that are just a tiny bit out of your reach. You want to go the big playground, you want to climb the curved ladder, go go go. "Outside, Outside a minute" was your mantra. You have slowed down a bit in the days since you got the brace but it won't last long I am sure. I don't want to hold you back, I want you try, and I want you to fail. We all have to learn how to get back up. But I promise, I'm going to do better keeping up with you!